UNOWN

How do you... < HumanGarbage > 11/14 22:10:22

...not wake up every morning wondering why you even bother to get up?
...not go into work feeling like everyone either hates you or thinks you're pathetic?
...pay attention when someone is talking and not have your mind wander?
...work on something & not have your mind wander?
...stop thinking about the girl who you blew it with 8 years ago because you just weren't good enough?
...stop imagining a better life where you're doing what you want because you finally found the courage to take a risk on doing the things you love?
...talk to others without putting your foot on mouth and saying something unintentionally rude of stupid?
...not lose confidence in anything you say and yammer through conversations?
...not come off as indifferent when someone tells you something; when most of the time it's not that you don't care it's that you never know what to say?
...not take 15 minutes to write a 2 line mail, because you feel the need to reread 15 times to make sure you didn't write something rude or stupid, and then end up doing so anyway because you have a hard time absorbing anything you read (ADD)?
...not have everything you say be negative?
...take a compliment as sincere; not assume its just placation to keep you from jumping off the roof?
...not feel chronically anxious throughout your waking life?
...love a family you've never felt a part of it?
...learn to co-exist with others?
...learn not to be so clingy?
...learn not to get jealous when a girl you kind of liked a few months ago has a boyfriend all of sudden when you never could gather the self confidence to at least ask her out?
...not have such angry|violent thoughts?
...not talk to yourself since there's no one else to talk to?
...not call yourself a retard when you're alone?
...not look back at the past with dread; to simply learn from mistakes, and move on?
...find the courage to talk a friend you haven't spoken to you in years?
...find the courage to see your parents and not want to get away as soon as you're with them?
...stop making excuses and get into therapy; admit that you're broken?
...not look back in regret saying if I'm fixed, I'll be 50 and life will have passed me by?

If you can't answer any of this, answer this.
...find the courage to end it?